why do i let this fear let me fuck up every course i take in high school and never reach my full potential?

i am a smart individual but i just cannot seem to get it together. i really want to do well but i think it is this fear that is holding me back.

i may just end up in high school for the rest of my life... *sigh*

i need to get over this fear and move on, fast. i need out of high school. i will go crazy if i don't get to study at university.

bleh. my head hurts. i will shut up now.